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Stupid people amuse me so. They think they know certain things and you put them in their place and suddenly, you're the jerk.

lol Just kidding...for the most part. I make no excuses for my high and mighty horse. I'm called on it and I simply giggle..I got you now, you know.
I've never kept my mental illness and I've taken a lot of shit for it. I've had people I go untreated, I have dementia, all kinds of hateful and disgusting things.  

Sometimes it's strangers but most times it's family. No matter how much I say help me and tell how to help me. They make no effort to understand me. Then I finally break down, I end up hurting people, trying to hurt myself, end up strapped down and crying. I come home I have to mend fences. But guess what? I wasn't the only one who did hurting. I was screamed at, called names, I balled on the couch for hours. Nobody apologizes to me.  

But no, it's all my fault. Nobody cares, it fucking sucks. I'm just an asshole looking for someone to give a shit. I'm alone in this shit storm.  
Oh,it's so cliche
to bow down and say
there's never been
a darker day

But God, it's true
even the sky isn't blue
the manic masses
of black, light does not
shine through

I wish you could see me
when I am my most
pathetic like you whisper
in the night
you tell me I am
not right
in the head

Poor pitiful me
crying needlessly
a victim of
propriety always
bowing down at your
insecurity

This is all fake
how much will
it take until
you finally
see me

As if I was
see through
you will never
see me

You will not feel me
You cannot be me
I cannot be myself
A Crappy Poem
I was 51/50 Sunday it was so crazy...I can't explain it.
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If people really knew me they'd run. Two days ago I 51/50'd. I was in the hospital with people even crazier than me. It's been a rough ten days. Plus we just cut my almost butt length hair to my upper middle back. I hurt so much right now.
I'm moving back home...but Tyler is staying here for college. :(

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MeanbreedDave Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2016
Hey bud, hows it going? It's been so loooong :D
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TheFlawedOne Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Am I a nemesis or a friend? I know this is really old. I had lots of messages to go through.
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lykosonette Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
FLAW :hear: it been so long x.x. How have u been? 

So sorry x.x. Chen and I have been so freaking busy. Even now chen is on a choir tour in dc. how have u been c;
- lykos
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TheFlawedOne Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
I'm doing good! How are you? That's amazing she's in DC. Good for her. What's been going on with you.
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lykosonette Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Ive been fine c;. Our spring break just ended and chen and i are now back in school.

During spring break tho, not much. Just stayed at home for the majority, hung out with friends for a day, and another day went to the movies for : batman vs superman.

Was pretty bad (2/10) (4/10 if nice). (6/10 if being rlly nice bc they spent a lot of money, but that be the only reason).

-lykos
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cutecrochetNL Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2016  Professional Artisan Crafter
Thank you for the :+fav: and the :+devwatch: :tighthug:
Cat by cutecrochetNL
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TheFlawedOne Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! I used to crochet and I love looking at art-work. 
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cutecrochetNL Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2016  Professional Artisan Crafter
Would love to see what you have made! Crochet is a drug to me, it makes me happy and excited, but also calm when my brain is full of stuff I stress about. :D
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