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I'm wading through murky water just to be close to you.
Do you want to hold me in the turbulence of the storm?  
Big, fat rain drops scream falling to the ground.  
Do you hear me whisper your name?  
Alas, I fear you do not, and that's my grandest fear.  
Please, do not forget me in the shadows of the cold, bleak dawn.
Murky Waters
I'm wading through murky water just to be close to you.
Do you want to hold me in the turbulence of the storm?  
Big, fat rain drops scream falling to the ground.  Do you hear me whisper your name?  Alas, I fear you do not, and that's my grandest fear.  
Please, do not forget me in the shadows of the cold, bleak dawn.
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I never understood how you could sit so quietly and just think.  Meanwhile I'm bouncing off the walls, turning black and blue.  I don't know how you can sit and listen.  I have five thoughts running through my head, usually one is screaming "die, die die!"  I see you sitting there unaware of what I'm thinking.  Is it a poem? A story? A dream?  While you're laying your sweet head to rest, I'm buzzing around like a moth to a light.  I flit. flit, sigh.  You laugh, I cry.  Sometimes, I can't sit down and just be.  My thought torture me but you are oh so free.  I don't know how I can keep up with myself.

But then, there's days that your laughter just makes me boil with anger.  I want to bounce you off walls and watch you cry.  I just want you to hurt so you can understand how I feel.  I am ashamed that I get so angry.  I keep it quiet but inside I'm a rage.  You don't know the ways I think of screaming like a maniac.  Or how I want to color the world black.  I listen to all you say, but I don't always care.  I want to pretend life isn't like this, but I can't.

Then there are days when I'm down, I swim on the floor avoiding every one's eyes.  Inside I'm crying begging to be heard.  I sleep most of the day.  I am just so heavy.  I can't stand up.  Colors swirl around me: red, yellow, black, blue.  I'm drowning in fear.  A whisper escapes like madness.  I can't gasp for air.  I see you stand there, looking trying to understand me.  But you never will, you don't even try...not even a little bit.  I'm alone even with you in the same room.  And at night I still cry alone.
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Are ya having any fun
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: The computer screen
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Pepsi
I'm wading through murky water just to be close to you.  Do you want to hold me in the turbulence of the storm?  Big, fat rain drops scream falling to the ground.  Do you hear me whisper your name?  Alas, I fear you do not, and that's my grandest fear.  Please, do not forget me in the shadows of the cold, bleak dawn.

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TheFlawedOne
Won't Be An American Idiot
United States
Current Residence: California
Favourite genre of music: Beatles and Oldies
Personal Quote: People say I have no heart, but I have the heart of a small child, on my desk.
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  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Are ya having any fun
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: The computer screen
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Pepsi
I'm wading through murky water just to be close to you.  Do you want to hold me in the turbulence of the storm?  Big, fat rain drops scream falling to the ground.  Do you hear me whisper your name?  Alas, I fear you do not, and that's my grandest fear.  Please, do not forget me in the shadows of the cold, bleak dawn.

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