You Didn't Know

you didn't know
i was made of ice
heart gripped frozen

you didn't know
my body afire
red blood flows

you didn't know
that my tears hurt,
oh my god, do they hurt

you didn't know
that i used to love you
you wouldn't care

you didn't know
i fantasize about
hurting, killing myself

you didn't know
that you would come out
and see the police there

you didn't know
that circle was sharp
perfect to paint with