i too, existed

i too, remain
in the misty colored
ashtrays of life.

i am certain
i once was more
than you ever dreamt.

i was lost at one time
but then again
weren't we all.

it's a pity to be
invisible against the
brilliant bright sun.

i too, existed
in the recesses
of your blacked heart.

i walked with giants
and dined with fairies;
slept with angels.

i pretended to be
a grand lady
or even a princess.

i lived in a sand castle
rich with toffee and
hot cocoa with whipped cream.

i too, pretended
i existed anywhere
although i do not.

i was unborn
the dead but not
yet dead.

i too, existed in
the after world of
never ever fucking land.

i too, existed
i too, existed...